Raw milk

We finally have a fridge-full of of tasty food and raw milk again!  Yay!
Emma has been off raw milk for about a week, I have been buying regular organic milk.  I don't know if it's the lack of raw, or the addition of pasteurized crap, but she has had some bad headaches and she is quite bored/angsty/moody.   Even with my increased patience, I have little patience for this.  It takes everything I have to be calm and patient during these times.  Sometimes, I don't last and end up saying something close to "suck it up."  This hurts her feelings and doesn't solve anything, nor is it the least bit effective.
I'll make her a nice breakfast and hope she has a better day.

It's my first day of work for the week, and I'll be honest.  I'm totally burned out on my job.  Thinking about going to work makes me feel sick.  But, it is loads better than it has been.  I don't feel so emotionally tied to it.  Not long ago, it was such a major factor in my mood.  Now, it's there, it sucks, but it gets me most of what I need right now.  I have a house, a car and some cash so I'm doing better than a lot of folks.

I had intended, with this blog, to write down what I was eating, and how it was making me feel.  But reading a list of what I eat each day seemed boring.  It's fairly obvious to me now that if I don't eat grains, I feel better.  So, instead of lists, I will talk more generally about diet vs. health.

I do feel like I am missing something without my daily kefir smoothie, so I have started a fresh batch.  I'm also going to start working on some fermented foods.  I have beets, so that'll be the first experiment.  My homemade apple cider vinegar is smelling good.  I thought I had messed up, and as usual, when I don't want to deal with something I ignore it.  I was finally ready to deal with it and throw it away, but it smelled just like vinegar - yay!  Avoidance pays off!